Change is Inevetible...

So growing up I was always under the impression that friends are always friends... or at least the best of them right? From time to time I realize that I have not talked to friends from high school in months, and in some cases years. This makes me feel like a bad person, then to realize that they have not made an attempt either. These are simply just friends, but when it comes to those that were the best friends it's hard to makes that realization that maybe people have changed and it isn't like it used to be. People change right? So how can I make myself understand that it is okay to "let go" of your "best friend" when they are no longer truly a best friend? Am I living in the past just trying to make it work? The uncomfortable feeling while around each other, going months without speaking to each other while living in the same city, even the "walking on egg shells" feeling that I sometimes get so I don't do something inappropriate or wrong. That is obviously a sign that the "best friendship" has dwindled down to simply a friendship. We've both moved on with our lives and I hope we can both understand that change is inevitable and unfortunately our lifestyles do not match the others any longer.

Then I come to think... is it because of children and no children? I have to answer with a 'no.' Another best friend has children... 2. We get along better than I have gotten along with anyone in a very long time. I can discuss my marriage problems--- when and if they arise. I can be myself --- burp if I need to... and the such. It's 100% relaxing and absolutely comfortable while spending time together. This is how best friendship should be right?

Maybe from time to time I indulge in the drama of my life to deeply. However when it comes to friends... you have to be very careful who you choose to let know your deepest secrets and who will be there through thick and thin... who contacts you back when you contact them, who realize that a friendship is two sides rather than just one.

Ultimately... There's only room for one 'bestest' friend... someone you can share all of your deepest thoughts with and you can trust, love, and be there for... and everything is returned without a price to pay... this is your significant other.

There is room for one 'bestest' friend, a best friend, and many friends. Those who are many friends many hear my thoughts, my best friend may hear my deep thoughts, but my 'bestest' friend... he will hear my deepest thoughts and desires.

Life goes on and we just have to accept change for what it is...

Again... I'm just me!