No... Not for me... For someone! Tonight TJ and I decided to go visit a couple that we are friends with. We always keep in contact with them and usually see them a couple times a month to just 'catch up.' Well lately it's been a little more difficult to 'catch up' because they just had a baby a few months ago. A precious baby girl. So everytime we go to their house it gets me thinking... Is it time to create a life; a living human being?
Parts of me always say yes simply because I want to have a family so bad. Then parts of me say no simply because I still want to experience different things in my life... vacations, finishing our basement, being rich...(haha.. just a dream!). Then I realize... when you have a family those things are not as important. We are ready. Stability of money flow is here, we have a house, we are mentally ready, we are emotionally ready, we are mature enough... yes we are ready.
First step... Get off the birth control. Second step... magic. Simple as that right? Then why do I have a HUGE fear that it will take FOREVER or will NEVER happen? I've always feared that I will not be able to have children, not sure why as it does not run in my family. I guess for now the only thing to do is wait it out and see. I'll keep you updated with any new comings however don't expect anything until at the soonest April!
So growing up I was always under the impression that friends are always friends... or at least the best of them right? From time to time I realize that I have not talked to friends from high school in months, and in some cases years. This makes me feel like a bad person, then to realize that they have not made an attempt either. These are simply just friends, but when it comes to those that were the best friends it's hard to makes that realization that maybe people have changed and it isn't like it used to be. People change right? So how can I make myself understand that it is okay to "let go" of your "best friend" when they are no longer truly a best friend? Am I living in the past just trying to make it work? The uncomfortable feeling while around each other, going months without speaking to each other while living in the same city, even the "walking on egg shells" feeling that I sometimes get so I don't do something inappropriate or wrong. That is obviously a sign that the "best friendship" has dwindled down to simply a friendship. We've both moved on with our lives and I hope we can both understand that change is inevitable and unfortunately our lifestyles do not match the others any longer.
Then I come to think... is it because of children and no children? I have to answer with a 'no.' Another best friend has children... 2. We get along better than I have gotten along with anyone in a very long time. I can discuss my marriage problems--- when and if they arise. I can be myself --- burp if I need to... and the such. It's 100% relaxing and absolutely comfortable while spending time together. This is how best friendship should be right?
Maybe from time to time I indulge in the drama of my life to deeply. However when it comes to friends... you have to be very careful who you choose to let know your deepest secrets and who will be there through thick and thin... who contacts you back when you contact them, who realize that a friendship is two sides rather than just one.
Ultimately... There's only room for one 'bestest' friend... someone you can share all of your deepest thoughts with and you can trust, love, and be there for... and everything is returned without a price to pay... this is your significant other.
There is room for one 'bestest' friend, a best friend, and many friends. Those who are many friends many hear my thoughts, my best friend may hear my deep thoughts, but my 'bestest' friend... he will hear my deepest thoughts and desires.
Life goes on and we just have to accept change for what it is...
Again... I'm just me!
Hello,
I'm Jenna from Sioux Falls, South Dakota. I'm a very fun and relatively outgoing person; however my favorite activity consists of watching movies with my husband which has turned me into a little of a home-body. I throughly enjoy reading--- mainly dramatic and romantic books. My life has taken multiple turns and has had many curves in it within the last 6 years --- and I'm only 22. I've gone through more in the last 6 years then some go through in their lifetime. I do not have regrets from the last 6 years as I have learned from everything that has ever happened to me. I'll now take you on a walk through my life!
I was born in Salt Lake City, Utah and moved to my hometown, Geddes, when I was 2. I went to one school my entire K-12... yes one school -- K-6 lower level and 7-12 upper level. I was involved in basically every club and activity possible in school -- except for Basketball and Track. I absolutely LOVED playing volleyball and cheerleading-- those two aspects of highschool are what I miss the most. I graduated at the top of my class and continued on with my education at Northeast Community College in Norfolk, NE for Computer Technology and Networking. At this point in time in my life I was involved with a guy that was in the military who had hurt me time and time again--- not physically but mentally and emotionally---yes I would say mental and emotional abuse. I was engaged to him and then broke it off when I found out he had cheated on me and was married to someone else. Again I don't regret being with him but if I could change the past he would not have been a part of it.
I then decided that I would live my life for myself rather than for him and I switched schools and majors --- and fell in love with the love of my life. I moved to Sioux Falls, SD and attended Southeast Technical Institute for Business Administration and a minor in Computer Technology. After I finished schooling at Southeast I continued to persue my dreams and attended Bellevue University for my Bachelors of Business Administration. I finished my studies in August 2008 and plan to obtain my Masters... at some point... but I'm just "schooled out" for right now.
In May of 2008 I married the man of my dreams, Terry (TJ). I've gone down an adventure being married because even though we lived together prior to marriage... things do change when you get married. We bought a house in July of 2008 and have been enjoying every minute of it... except of course the much higher monthly payment!!!
We are no on the decision of making a baby. We both want a family very badly however we know that we have to make sure our priorities are in check first. We know we are ready so when the time comes... it comes!
Until next time... This is me... Jenna Marie